3 years ago I asked her out and she said no. I guess we are just friends now.
In a week’s time I will be going on a trip with her for over a month, I’ll be sharing the same room with her, and we’ll be sleeping in the same bed for most of the time.
That was her arrangement, and it’s probably because that’s the cheapest room available.
Part of me is glad that you would feel comfortable enough to sleep right next to me, that you would feel safe enough to change your clothes while I’m in the room knowing that I would never violate your privacy.
But another part of me is a little bit unhappy. It’s as though you never took however I felt about you seriously.
If I were a guy, we would be in different rooms, sleeping in different beds. You would be willing to pay double the hotel rates for that to happen. You might not even be going on this trip on your own with me.
Anyway, I hope you know that I did like you a lot, that I was very serious about it, and it wasn’t just some phase I was going through, because hey I’m still gay,
and I think I still kind of like you.